Thanks sweetie <3
My biggest fear is that I won’t ever be able to play music again. Not because I physically won’t be able to, but, because I think I will stop loving it as much as I used to. No I am not the greatest singer, song writer or guitar player, but I am good enough for myself. I have so many dreams and goals and every time I want to achieve something, some stupid ass problem seems to rise. I try to hold my guitar and the sharp deep pain that goes through my arms is way more than I can handle. I can’t even write lyrics because all I want to write is how angry I am with everything that keeps happening. I am not an angry person. I am trying as hard as possible to be positive about everything because I know that there’s worse things that could happen. I mean… yeah this is pretty bad, but I ain’t dying… at least I don’t think.
Anyway… I just hope that I heal sooner rather than later. I am coming so close to giving it all up and just settling for whatever can happen. Maybe my dreams were far too big and this is reality going “You’re meant for basic” Maybe this is as good as it gets for me… Maybe not.
I hate basic. I am not basic…
I apologize for this rant. But even people who are positive about their situation sometimes crack… and cry… and swear at the world…
Than wake up and keep fighting.
Does anyone wanna give me a job in Montreal? I mean… I can’t speak french all that much, but I sure do learn fast. Anyone? ANYONE? Please??? Hello? *knocks on screen*
There is nothing prettier than a city at 5 AM with its empty streets and cold wind.(via niggaquisha)